Sitting at the centre of the capital, I'm trying to get used to a lot of things. Even an exile requires a lot of initial efforts to settle down. An elaborate description will require a lot of patience, so I'm keeping it simple and to the point. Settling down means getting used to things that are new or apparently new. For people as lethargic as I am, any new thing is like a headache. Travelling for 12 hours thinking about what I'm going to do in the next 3 years or for the next 3 years marked the initiation. Adjustment (can't call it a disorder till now) started from the moment I boarded the train. End of the journey brought a new stack of procedures. Last two weeks have been another journey, - from college formalities to searching for a paying guest, from buying daily goods to filling water in the cooler, from listening to the babbling of the landlady to probing for hostel allotment, from finding route charts to avoid being deceived to fight for a proper allotment, from installing an air conditioner to arranging and organising things in the newly given room, from sticking yellow paper on the window glasses(to ward off eyes of the sun and human) to calling up sweepers to clean up our mess, from standing at the balcony looking at the courtyard below to suddenly realising that this is not where I belong to while talking over phone, from maintaining a more or less tolerant and cool attitude towards things I came across to suddenly getting irritated with everything even without provocation, from holding up my fear and believing that nothing would go wrong to ending up bothering everyone with my insensible preoccupations, from waiting to return to the room all throughout the day to staring blankly after the duty is over thinking about what I'm supposed to do once I get back here, from deciding to study hard during the rounds to opening the book and reading nothing, from being a cheerfully ageing girl to becoming an anxious, afraid and shrinking personality - the journey has been fascinating indeed. And it hasn't ended yet. A lot is yet to come.
